Remember simple things

After “now”, what will you do? I got a time to think about my future because my friends will leave soon, and my Japanese friends already had started job hunting in Japan, so I was thinking what I would do in the future.  I sometimes I forget why I am here now because my major is Japanese modern literature, but I’ve studied English in IEP. This is not normal study case in Japan, so I feel worried about my future job, or life. Of course I do not know all these studies are going to be effective for job hunting or not, but I sometimes became to be lazy to do anything, and nowadays, I was lazy because I was tired of thinking my future and studying English …

However, this weekend was busy for me, so I do not have time to just sleep in my room. I had some parties with my friends. I went to a pub on Saturday. I was talking with some people like bartenders and waitresses. I just tell names of drinks and snacks, but they could not hear well. And I also went to Hikaru’s host house on Sunday, and almost all family came there, and we ate supper together; then I and Hikaru play with children. It was so excited and aggressive exercise as usual, and we talked a lot. A boy was pretending being Santa Clause (I don’t know why), and he asked me something I want in Xmas and so on, but I could not pronounce those words well; then he could not understand soon.  Also, I went to convenience store and I asked a clerk “I am looking for cookies”, but I was asked again. These experiences were annoying for me because I’ve thought I can speak with anyone now, but it was wrong. But, they reminded me why I am here… I just want to talk many people as well as possible. Nowadays I just care about future jobs or licenses, but I remember I just want to become be the person who can talk with many people in some language. It is simple, but it is also easy to forget. I could remember that feeling, and I will try keeping this in my mind in the future, so it will also help me. Also, I will study hard from today.